Man, my last post (about my current roadblocks in running a half marathon) was slightly depressing and I've felt convicted about it since writing.
God has given me more than I could ever deserve. He blessed me with being able to run A LOT this year and has given me legs and feet. Hallelujah! Even though they are not perfect, He has given me ability to fight through pain and run anyway.
I want to have a heart that chooses to say, "Lord, blessed be your name" no matter what I have or lack. So, I'm choosing today to say that, "He gives and takes away but blessed be the name of the Lord!" Listening to the popular christian worship song last night before bed brought me to this place. I believe He spoke to me through that song about this particular situation.
So, even if He never heals my legs or my feet, and even if he never provides me with new shoes or new orthotics, I will bless Him. I will trust in Him and I won't leave His side.
As my left foot continues to heal from the damage my heel-wearing did to it last friday night, I'm using this time to re-establish my quiet times and Sabbath days with the Lord. I never want running to be a higher priority than Him.
I will be able to get my old running shoes back tomorrow since I'm going to Portland to visit my dad for Father's Day. I'm very excited and hopeful that I can get to training soon! Right now, I'm trusting that it will be 'when' I start training rather than 'if' I can start training... :)
Saturday, June 15, 2013
Wednesday, June 12, 2013
Roadblocks
I learned in my personal identity class that something is a good story when an obstacle is overcome. Well, obstacles suck. And sometimes it seems like it's impossible to get passed them.
I've decided to run a half marathon at the end of August ( about 2 months away) with my friends.
I started running this year and was getting pretty good and got up to about 4.5 miles with mostly hills.
Of course, this can't be a good story without obstacles arising.
Let me explain.
I used to be a runner. I ran cross country my freshman year of high school and then had to drop out part way through my sophomore year. LAME. I want to say that I had some really good excuse like I fell off of a roof and broke both of my legs, but no. My pitiful excuse is shin splints. womp womp.
Yeah, some people can just push through the pain, run them off, and eventually they get better or just go away. Mine don't get better. They get worse and worse until I just can't run anymore.
Come to find out that my feet are seriously messed up with protruding bunions and flat feet :( which contributes to my tendency toward shin splints.
So, I got a good pair of orthotics from a podiatrist and have been able to run in really good saucony shoes as long as I have my custom made orthotics. I still have pain while running and still get light shin splints but it is nothing compared to what it was in my cross country days.
Yay, obstacle conquered! Right? Nope.
I left my shoes in Portland 2 weeks ago AND they are getting pretty dang worn from all the miles I've put on them. So, basically I've stopped running and don't really know what to do. I need to get new shoes and new orthotics but at this point I'm pretty much broke and in debt. I should probably just drive to Portland and get my dang (for lack of the word I want to use here) shoes.
Oh, but you thought that was my only dillemma??? muahahahaha! (yeah, I'm weird get over it.) It's sadly not.
I am on the couch and my bunion is in serious pain ever since wearing heels to graduation. Man, I just had to look like Cinderella didn't I? haha ;) So, I can't run anyway or hardly walk with ease at this point. So, we'll see how this obstacle pans out....how long it takes my foot to heal....whether I get my shoes back or not...and whether I can find new ones and get new orthotics. I also feel like even with all of these things I could start training and once I pass 5 miles, my shins and feet will be in so much pain that I can't go on. I feel like giving up. Like not even registering for the half marathon...which another thing is 40 dollars (remember..I'm broke as a joke)
So, my story could potentially be really good all because of these roadblocks. Right now, I'm waiting, practicing patience and waiting to heal and then I will decide the next step (haha get it?) from there.
I'm hoping and praying that in August I'll be a half marathon champ reading this post and laughing at myself for being so dramatic and focused in on my little circumstances. Until next time, peace out. I'm going to go listen to my Donald Miller audio book in bed :)
I've decided to run a half marathon at the end of August ( about 2 months away) with my friends.
I started running this year and was getting pretty good and got up to about 4.5 miles with mostly hills.
Of course, this can't be a good story without obstacles arising.
Let me explain.
I used to be a runner. I ran cross country my freshman year of high school and then had to drop out part way through my sophomore year. LAME. I want to say that I had some really good excuse like I fell off of a roof and broke both of my legs, but no. My pitiful excuse is shin splints. womp womp.
Yeah, some people can just push through the pain, run them off, and eventually they get better or just go away. Mine don't get better. They get worse and worse until I just can't run anymore.
Come to find out that my feet are seriously messed up with protruding bunions and flat feet :( which contributes to my tendency toward shin splints.
So, I got a good pair of orthotics from a podiatrist and have been able to run in really good saucony shoes as long as I have my custom made orthotics. I still have pain while running and still get light shin splints but it is nothing compared to what it was in my cross country days.
Yay, obstacle conquered! Right? Nope.
I left my shoes in Portland 2 weeks ago AND they are getting pretty dang worn from all the miles I've put on them. So, basically I've stopped running and don't really know what to do. I need to get new shoes and new orthotics but at this point I'm pretty much broke and in debt. I should probably just drive to Portland and get my dang (for lack of the word I want to use here) shoes.
Oh, but you thought that was my only dillemma??? muahahahaha! (yeah, I'm weird get over it.) It's sadly not.
I am on the couch and my bunion is in serious pain ever since wearing heels to graduation. Man, I just had to look like Cinderella didn't I? haha ;) So, I can't run anyway or hardly walk with ease at this point. So, we'll see how this obstacle pans out....how long it takes my foot to heal....whether I get my shoes back or not...and whether I can find new ones and get new orthotics. I also feel like even with all of these things I could start training and once I pass 5 miles, my shins and feet will be in so much pain that I can't go on. I feel like giving up. Like not even registering for the half marathon...which another thing is 40 dollars (remember..I'm broke as a joke)
So, my story could potentially be really good all because of these roadblocks. Right now, I'm waiting, practicing patience and waiting to heal and then I will decide the next step (haha get it?) from there.
I'm hoping and praying that in August I'll be a half marathon champ reading this post and laughing at myself for being so dramatic and focused in on my little circumstances. Until next time, peace out. I'm going to go listen to my Donald Miller audio book in bed :)
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Pour in Me to Overflow!
7 days ablaze is here again! It is day 3 of corporate fasting and prayer. I came across this song by Jeremy Riddle for the first time a couple days ago and it is completely my prayer for this week.
Spirit of the Living God come fall afresh on me
Come wake me from my sleep
Blow through the caverns of my soul
Pour in me to overflow,
to overflow
Jeremy Riddle-Fall Afresh
What power in this song! Lord, there have been so many times throughout this year that I have lost hope in You and become spiritually dead. Awaken my soul to you and may I receive all that You offer so that I can give to others what I know is true and completely real!
Prayers/Words that have been prayed/spoken over me thus far...
-That I would ask Jesus what I want from Him---He wants to freely give to me. He doesn't need anything from me!
-I am girded in strength and kindness..like the proverbs 31 woman-WALK IN IT. I struggle so much with self-doubt..uncertainty...insecurity. No, insecurity. This is who God made me to be!
-I have a natural/gifted special countenance about me..the way I carry myself-This has given me more confidence in the joy I have to offer to others and not to change this when it seems like I'm being judged negatively by people for it or when the question comes to my mind if I'm doing something wrong or need to act differently.
-Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him
and He will make straight your paths.
---Man, I have been leaning on my own understanding sooo much lately and getting rolled up in a ball of confusion about God and what He is saying and being filled with anxiety and condemnation. I will trust the LORD. He loves me. He has my best interest in mind. I want to align my heart with His.
-Men prayed over me as fathers pray over their daughters--Wow, this meant so much to me when an elder prayed for me yesterday at the 6am prayer meeting. The Lord is constantly bringing Godly men to pray for me and it means so much because I can't remember the last time my earthly father prayed for me.
-That I would be more "vocal" in spreading His kingdom...Wow, exactly my hearts desire. I know this is the Lord's heart for me. My mouth holds me back so much...I feel I can't speak or don't know how to say things and then I sink back into my mind..God is working though. I will cling to His truth and won't let fear hold me back!
-That I would dig my heels in deeper this week...Yesterday, I kinda felt like giving up at work. It was so hard to be working and fasting at the same time..feeling light headed and sluggish and then feeling like a dumb dumb when I was being trained to close..and not remembering anything that my co-worker said to me or not knowing answers to questions she would ask me. Also, my sister came home yesterday and it's just a completely different atmosphere when she is here. It's like I have the toughest time connecting with God when she is here..that could be because I just love hanging out with her and don't want to go in my room...I like spending time with God in the living room haha and that is where we hang out together when she is home. Also, there is no spiritual connection between us. I love her to death and want her desperately to come into the kingdom. I want her to desire Christ and most of the time I feel I do an absolutely terrible job and portraying His love for her. Anyway, kind of went off on a tangent there. I know God has more for me this week! He wants to surpass all of my expectations and I just need to keep leaning on Him and drawing from His ever-flowing resources.
Spirit of the Living God come fall afresh on me
Come wake me from my sleep
Blow through the caverns of my soul
Pour in me to overflow,
to overflow
Jeremy Riddle-Fall Afresh
What power in this song! Lord, there have been so many times throughout this year that I have lost hope in You and become spiritually dead. Awaken my soul to you and may I receive all that You offer so that I can give to others what I know is true and completely real!
Prayers/Words that have been prayed/spoken over me thus far...
-That I would ask Jesus what I want from Him---He wants to freely give to me. He doesn't need anything from me!
-I am girded in strength and kindness..like the proverbs 31 woman-WALK IN IT. I struggle so much with self-doubt..uncertainty...insecurity. No, insecurity. This is who God made me to be!
-I have a natural/gifted special countenance about me..the way I carry myself-This has given me more confidence in the joy I have to offer to others and not to change this when it seems like I'm being judged negatively by people for it or when the question comes to my mind if I'm doing something wrong or need to act differently.
-Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him
and He will make straight your paths.
---Man, I have been leaning on my own understanding sooo much lately and getting rolled up in a ball of confusion about God and what He is saying and being filled with anxiety and condemnation. I will trust the LORD. He loves me. He has my best interest in mind. I want to align my heart with His.
-Men prayed over me as fathers pray over their daughters--Wow, this meant so much to me when an elder prayed for me yesterday at the 6am prayer meeting. The Lord is constantly bringing Godly men to pray for me and it means so much because I can't remember the last time my earthly father prayed for me.
-That I would be more "vocal" in spreading His kingdom...Wow, exactly my hearts desire. I know this is the Lord's heart for me. My mouth holds me back so much...I feel I can't speak or don't know how to say things and then I sink back into my mind..God is working though. I will cling to His truth and won't let fear hold me back!
-That I would dig my heels in deeper this week...Yesterday, I kinda felt like giving up at work. It was so hard to be working and fasting at the same time..feeling light headed and sluggish and then feeling like a dumb dumb when I was being trained to close..and not remembering anything that my co-worker said to me or not knowing answers to questions she would ask me. Also, my sister came home yesterday and it's just a completely different atmosphere when she is here. It's like I have the toughest time connecting with God when she is here..that could be because I just love hanging out with her and don't want to go in my room...I like spending time with God in the living room haha and that is where we hang out together when she is home. Also, there is no spiritual connection between us. I love her to death and want her desperately to come into the kingdom. I want her to desire Christ and most of the time I feel I do an absolutely terrible job and portraying His love for her. Anyway, kind of went off on a tangent there. I know God has more for me this week! He wants to surpass all of my expectations and I just need to keep leaning on Him and drawing from His ever-flowing resources.
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